Day 6.

I can never let go of my addiction, not when it's the only thing which can sooth me when I'm down and under the weather.

Sabar and jangan buat konklusi awal. Step by step, slow slow, maju ke hadapan.

dua darjat

The distance. The ravine. The gap.

perbezaan darjat itu amat pedih. baik dalam taraf ekonomi atau taraf pelajaran.

maybe not

Maybe it was meant for me, maybe it wasn't. Either way, I chose to be happy, knowing that you're happy. Haaaaaaaaaaahh.

drowning

I'm drowning in a world of hate,

created by myself.

There's really no escape,

and i'm the one to blame.

All my memories,

circle around and torment me.

The red string is way past broken,

so is everything I see.

- Broken Mask

hope

The silence is killing me. I have no expectation except for things to remain the same as they were before. I confessed, and that's that. I'm fucking happy I was drunk enough to do that. Now I'm off to be because I'm fucking sleepy.

Saatnya

Tidak, masa aku belum tiba. Aku belum sedia, jauh dari sedia. Beri aku masa.

texts and smiles

Although I've lost hope but her texts still makes me smile.

a lie

Save yourself the embarrassment and act as if you're not interested at all and there's nothing more to this than  a favor for a friend.

whyyy

Business as usual

Strictly business. I need to remind myself of this.